oh so weary soul

Lord give me an undivided heart.
:)

TAWG sessions have been so beautiful these days. i kinda think 2010 might not be that bad after all.


ANYWAYS

josh groban, michael buble, charlotte church, jason mraz, colbie calliat = awesome. sick of k-pop and stupid bigbang songs.

cant nobody do it like youuuuuu

yah




my email has some problems. AGAIN.



sian



irritatinggggggggggg thing. i really must start praying for it -.-




technically i cannot type more than like 5 sentences

it refuses to AUTO SAVE for me

and it'll just hang and stare back at me

REFUSES to send

算了.

yo God some help here please



anw, yeah homework has been ruling my life for the past say 2 1/2 days





we'll see how it goes, i'm not leaving the house today

on a random note, a modus vivendi has been reached between me and my mum on the issue of me purchasing contact lens. it will come soon AMEN!!!

HOMEWORK SHOULD BE DECIMATED!!!!!! it has a deletrious effect on my social life!!!!


ANYWAYS

CURRENT FAVE SONG: officially missing you by Tamia

awesomeeeeeeee song . even better when you're not really missing anyone.....HAHA!

I NEED TO SEND MY EMAIL!!!!

WHY CANT THE STUPID GMAIL/HOTMAIL COOPERATE WITH ME!!

prettyflowers.

my parents decided to stop buying me contact lens

for some reason

they also waited until i finished my last pair before telling me -.-

then i was like sooooooooooooo upset

i had this sad puppy face

then i said, cannot lah, i still SINGLE LEH (must drama abit)

then my mum started laughing like some teenager -.-

then she said okay lah, dont be sad, i buy you the monthly one

???!!! i have no idea what just happened -.-

hello God

"Sometime"

by May Riley Smith

From the book, I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris

Sometime, when all life's lessons have been learned,

And sun and stars forevermore have set,

The things which our weak judfments here have spurned,

The things o'er which we grieved with lashes wet,

Will flash before us out of life's dark night,

As stars shine most in deeper tints of blue;

And we shall see how all God's plans are right,

And how what seemed reproof was love most true.

Then be content poor heart;

God's plans, like lilies pure and white, unfold;

we must not tear the close-shut leaves apart,

Time will reveal the chalices of gold.

And if, through patient toil, we reach the land.

Where tired feet, with sandals loosed, may rest,

When we shall clearly see and understand,

I think we will say, "GOD KNEW THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!"

yeah!

how could He love me so?

AHHHH HOMEWORK!!!!!

OUTING OR HOMEWORK!!!!!!!???????

homework or OUTING???!!!

;D

.

my face feels so oily and sticky now -.-

55pages of geepeeee

god help me!!!!

ANYWAYS

i realise that

the way God answers my prayers sometimes are prettyyyy scary in an awesome kinda way

what i mean is that

i sometimes pray like

if this happens, it means something is true

HAHAHA

.

god are you trying to tell me something

.

out with it!!!!!! XD

audible voice please thankyou

LOLLLL

:D

being pregnant is not exactly the easiest thing in the world, love you mommy

today i had a h2h talk with my mom over breakfast (after one day of cold war XD). i learnt alot. we had a good laugh about stuff too. i think the past week, i've been seeking my happiness at the expense of others. especially my mom. ive been selfish, unreasonable and rebellious. i cant deny that the past week was the highest point in 2009 for me, but i have neglected the most important person in my life, and i've been a lousy lousy role model to my sister.

so we agreed about alot of things. i'll be home before 9pm......................until i'm married.

i finally understand why. the heart of a mom has none of herself in it. her children are the most precious thing to her, and i should be listening and trusting the one who has dedicated herself to me. for everything. trust is the key to any relationship. trust is like jumping off a cliff, you dont know where you will land, how you will land, when you will land. all you know is that that special person is there to catch you beefore you hit the ground. it is not knowing the answers. it takes courage, it takes faith, it takes hope.

.

but it's always worth it.

thank you God.

PEACE OUT!!!

mum you are a blessing. you will come first before anything, anyone. i dont care what others will say. what you say will count the most ;) promise lah okay, and i dont break promises XD

it's not like i dont have a mind of my own. it's more like my mom knows best (about everything, past present future) and i agree with her point of view and i want to trust and obey (rachel your fave song LOL) and also because that's what God would've wanted me to do and i want God to be happy.

i love you mom!!!! <3

.

.

anws on a random note, i have something i'm really really REALLLLLYY proud of. ALVIN TAY I GUESSED IT HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I. DID. IT. I TOLD YOU MY INTUTION IS DARN ACCURATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WIN!!!! XD i was laughing hysterically. I AM SERIOUSLY AWESOME. :D

what am i without you?

this week has totally reconfirmed that joining m&d was the 2nd best decision i've made in 17 years.............................. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ever since i realised i kinda lost my cellg, i was like sad for agessss but then God gave me m&d!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)


i told wei about the 2nd best decision thing.

and he didnt ask why!!! he was like, so what's the first? -.-

and i said, "CUTTING MY HAIR SHORT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D" i look absolutely hideous with long hair. and worse when i tie my hair.

i look like a happy little elf

iloveeeeeeethisphotoooooo.

everyone is like smilinggggggg and

i look so happy and i feel soooooooooo happy :))))))))))

i realised i saw them 3 times this week already & going to see them again on sat and sun -_- :O HAHA :D



ohhhh happy 2010 everyone :)


yesterday at service, i had that omg-i'm-going-to-cry feeling. 2010 isnt going to be easy. but then again, i think it's God's reminder to me not to rely on myself.


anyways, i've decided to start something new this year. it's called the Thank Tin :D like i'll write something i want to thank God for and i fold it into a heart and put it into the tin. everyday! so when i'm sad, or angry or discouraged, i can look into the tin and see the hearts that God has blessed me with. it's like a self-encouragement thingy i guess. aint it awesome!!!! i know :D HAHA.



oh, NEW YEAR RESOLLUTIONS!

1. pray unceasingly/consistently

2. Fall in love. With the bible :D

3. Word substitution:
Replace

-damn with darn
-oh my god with ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh myyyyyyyyyyyy dear me (yes i'm still working on this -_-)
-bloody with pretty
-what the hell with pretty flowers!
-shit with fly me to the mooonnnn

4. love myself more, love my face more, love other people, love animals.

5. try not to crush. i said that last year too but cmi. -_- every year since sec 3 got new crush one. walao what is wrong with me? it's normal right?! haha! crushing is sooooo....................................................................................................................... depressing sometimes XD

6. BRING TISSUE PAPER EVERYWHERE I GOOOOO!!!!!! (yes still working on this too)


:D i remember the start of 2009, i was like sooooo super high and filled with energy to the max. it was like, "2009 BRING IT ON MAN!!!" but now it's like, pretty flowers, pretty flowers, VERY PRETTY FLOWERS. -.- HAHA c'mon pris positive thoughts :D

love yall loads

i need some time alone with God................................................................

happy new year's eveeeee!

IN THE END,

i didnt by the dress.
i didnt stayover.

i just couldnt lor. see my mum so upset i also upset.
end the year right lah.
:)
so i left at 3am.

loveloveloveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee HAHA.
h2h was fun
it was a different experience.
i miss h2h with esther ):

bloop!

HELLO CHINA!

haha. my mum was like, aiyo where is this place? so ugly ah?! -.-

i bug my parents until damn tired alr

i think they are also tired of hearing my voice HAHA

my puppy eyes and sweet smile are not working!! (or maybe they are HAHA) my mum was like, 'please dont talk.' then my dad was like, 你是女孩子leh! then he totally ignored my speech after that -_-

ANYWAYS my last line was, "Before i leave, i have to tell you something. God wants me to let you know that he says yes. So you should to."

then my mum, wa lao she also played along/ she was like, "huh but God told me to say no leh?! cannot be God so fickle-minded right???"

-.-

HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA then they kicked me out of the room ):

no hope lah

give up liao

HAHA

ON A HAPPIER NOTE,

SCHOOL'S STARTING ON THE 11TH OF JANUARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHN YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM SO SORRY ESTHER YOU HAD TO HEAR ME SCREAM LOL.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

DOUGLAS' WEDDING ON SAT.
I JUST GOT THE INVITATION IN THE MAIL.
THEN IT WAS LIKE, RSVP: REPLY BY 20TH DEC. LOL.



lalala

ok i'm going to make my blog private cos yes, i dont want my mum to read it. HA! wait for my emails!